Arina, I will never escape the guilt that I felt when I left you and your mother. I never told you what happened that day, even after our paths reconnected... Do you recall Sejm from the temple? He was another shaman of Wurm. We...we were traveling through the northern peak with Knut—looking for more villages to welcome to the lodge. Knut was called back early to be with Gaerta during childbirth. Sejm and I decided to continue on. ~~I woke up to the smell of burning.~~ Smoke choked me awake. ~~I couldn't tell if our tent was on fire.~~ I should not be writing this in a letter. When we are together again, I will tell you this story face-to-face.